I had a fairly long, convoluted dream last night/this morning, part of which was sexual in nature (which is something that doesn't happen very often). I won't go into detail, I only mention it because I noticed something about the sexual portion of the dream that got me thinking...
During parts of it, I was directly involved, it was personal, up-close, and wonderful. At various points though, it was like I dissociated from the situation and wound up watching it unfold from the upper corner of the room, like an out-of-body experience. It made me wonder if that was a remnant of previous traumas; if perhaps I became too emotionally wrapped up in it & got scared of the intimacy flowing between us?
I can't say for sure who I thought it was at the time, but looking back now, it seems to have been the same unknown petite woman who's shown up in my dreams several times in the past. I wonder if it's foreshadowing, if it's someone I've yet to meet?
I still can't decide if I'm happy for dreams like that, or if they just make me sad. The one thing I do know is that I really miss having someone in my life.
7:18 a.m. - 2021-04-10
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