I guess the good thing about regretting last night is that it's made me re-evaluate what it is I actually want/don't want to do. Even if I'm physically compromised currently, I do want to get in better shape (if possible). I *don't* want to drink, as a general rule. I also don't want to be forced to abstain (as a well-known german song goes, 'not drinking is no solution either'), so my new intent is that during the summer when I'm out on the cycle, I'll 'give myself permission' to have a beer or two as a way to break up the long-distance travel. I do enjoy a cold beer on a hot day (it's part of the charm of long rides, imo), and since my main goal is riding & not drinking, I think it fits. During the colder months, I think I'll avoid it, or if I do want something, I'll stick to N/A beers. I feel like this is a good compromise, but as with everything I decide, we'll see how it goes.
I've also been studying more about 'building an aerobic base', and about how to (try to) avoid overdoing it with the weightlifting. The aerobic heart rate numbers are much lower than I expected, and it's going to take some time to learn to pace myself, but I think I can do it. I decided to do some rowing around noon today, but only for 10 minutes, and only at 50% resistance. I recorded the workout with my 0ura app so i could see what my heart rate was, and it turned out that, even though I was going so slowly that it seemed pointless (and I felt a little silly doing so), I actually went over my 'recommended' max aerobic rate (using the 50-70% of '220-age' max). Apparently, what I considered to be an extremely easy workout was actually just right. Not sure what that means for how out of shape I am, but at least now I have a frame of reference going forward. I assume a similar thing will apply to weightlifting as well, which I'll be slowly easing back into starting tomorrow morning. Speaking of, I'm going to try lifting 1st thing in the morning - I've never done it, but considering it will give me a lot of time for recovery (as lifting late has been interfering with my sleep), I think if I can pull it off, it'll be a good thing. Then I'll be able to start the cold tub/sauna and WHM breathing again in the evenings (which will be around the time I'd normally get home from work).
I also ordered a small set of speakers for my bedroom, because I want to try getting back into some of the self-hypnotic self-improvement tracks I have. I know a lot of people have methods of winding down at night to improve sleep, but I'm not great at meditation, (and reading a book won't work for me because I get too deeply involved in the story) and these tracks all begin with a series of body relaxation techniques that I think will be helpful. Anyway, I should be receiving those by next Friday (if not sooner), so I'll be able to start by then.
Now, if I could only motivate myself to do some of the others things I think I'd enjoy but can't be arsed to do...
2:05 p.m. - 2023-11-19
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