Seems I've forgotten to write since the 14th. I made it through that little emotional dip fairly unscathed, and that particular sadness hasn't returned. I'm still somewhat plagued by loneliness for companionship though, as evidenced by a few of the dreams I've had recently which have been focused on mostly non-explicit intimacy with what I assume is the same petite woman each time. These reminders of physical closeness, especially with the effect a dream state has in adding to the feeling of realness, has me in a bit of a mood, though otherwise things are going well. What I wouldn't give, though, to just hold a real version of her for a while...
Moving on, I've had my 2nd chiro adjustment, and things have both improved and gotten worse, but that's as expected. It'll take my body some time to re-acclimate to the realignments; I know this from previous experience. I also stopped in to the sport massage place next door, and may be scheduling an appointment sometime in the next few weeks.
I received my Oura ring 3 days ago and have been wearing it since. There hasn't been enough data collected yet to make any broad conclusions, but the one thing that's become obvious is that I toss & turn *a lot* during the night, likely more than once every 15 minutes or so. Light sleep, or deep, or REM, doesn't seem to matter, I turn over/move a lot. Not sure how big of a problem that is yet, but hopefully after 2-3 weeks of data, I'll be able to extrapolate more on that. Also, my resting heart rate is ridiculously high (in my opinion) which tells me I really need to start working on adding more cardio into my routine. My lowest overall RHR so far has been 59 BPM on my 2nd night of sleep. 1st night was 62 bpm, but that's the night I shoveled the driveway so I was exhausted. Lighter upper-body workout on the 59 bpm night, and last night's included deadlifts which are very taxing on the body - last night's was 60bpm. Pretty sure I should be mid- to low-50s, or even in the 40s if I were actually fit, but I'll have to research that to verify.
Anyway, I've actually confirmed that yes, I do have sleep issues, and that's a bit of a comfort to know that I haven't just been imagining it. I have thoughts on how to design some experiments to evaluate different things to see how my sleep is affected, but I'm going to wait until March to start those, to make sure I have a good baseline reading. I'm glad I can finally quantify this, because it's hard to make changes without knowing where you currently stand.
8:24 p.m. - 2021-02-19
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