It's kinda funny, and it's kinda sad.
I get up in the morning, make some coffee, and check a few websites, maybe do my language practice for the day, then I start watching shows. While I'm watching them, I forget about my life; I become captivated/enthralled, immersing myself in the story, my empathic tendencies being drawn out by the different situations. Usually laughter, sometimes sadness, but never mine.
I like this. My mind is free from strife, free from worry, free from the reality of my life. When my eyes get too tired to watch, I turn it off, and try to find something to do. Sometimes, I'll get a workout in during the afternoon, but aside from that? Nothing seems appealing. The neighborhood (and the city, for that matter) in which I live, is a flat piece of miles of city blocks, crisscrossing in symmetry. The few parks in the area are only a few acres, and you're never out of sight of surface roads, or out of hearing range of traffic. They honestly hold no interest for me.
I could always drive someplace, but where? And why? Covid is spreading here, so I'm not going into any businesses, or wanting to be around people. There are few natural points of interest around aside from the big lake, and sitting on a bluff in the rain & cold for 30 minutes hardly seems with the 1.5 hr drive, so I sit here, on my bed, on my couch, on the stairs, or stand in the hall, the kitchen, and wonder, what am I going to do with my time? What can I do? I never come up with an answer, so I end up turning the computer back on & watching more shows.
Even if I'm hiding, at least when I'm watching them, I can smile and laugh, feel as though I'm a part of something, and remember the times when I used to believe there was hope for friendship, and romance, and love.
6:42 p.m. - 2020-12-13
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