New meal plan seems to be going well, I feel better overall, and I'm buying less food, which is a win, too.
I also feel like I'm starting to get a handle on my new, 'natural' hormone levels. The negativity is slowly reducing, and I'm starting to look forward to working out again. I haven't done so in maybe 8-10 days, and I'm finally beginning to not feel pain constantly, like, today, I felt pretty good overall. Some neck pain (C1/C2), but everything else feels reasonably good.
I decided to change this month's workouts back to an old 'deload' plan I had, so for the rest of the month, I'll be doing 3 lighter workouts a week. Hopefully in the next week or so, I'll also get in for a blood draw. I'm hoping that by 9/4 at the latest, I'll have my prescription and will be able to start therapy. Got to get the blood draw scheduled though.September is when my original plan restarts, and I want to be prepared for it. If I can keep it up, it'll run through the end of November, and I'll spend December doing a 3-day/week strength plan until the new year. After that? Not sure - I have a spreadsheet planned out for 2024, but haven't looked at it since this year's plan kind of fell apart, so I'm sure it'll have to be revisited.
Went to the 'jazz jam' at the wolf on Wed and while it was a decent time, it's not set up in a way that I'd be confident to participate. It's basically a band of retirees, and they'll have others swap in & out occasionally. I'm not confident enough in my (minimal) talent to be able to jump right into anything, so I'll have to pass. Tay did a good job with her baritone sax though, and it was fun to see her play. Her last day of work will be this Saturday, so I'll go out a day earlier than usual this week to see her off.
Obviously, whatever issue I'd had with drinking previously seems to have subsided, as I can now have 3-4 pints during a night out. I might not feel the best the next morning, but I'm not in agony after only one, like I was for a while. I'm happy about this, because it means that, when I need it, I have the option. I'm also feeling like I'm not in such a 'doom & gloom' mood as I used to be, and have been (relatively) enjoying going out & being around people again. I'm sure part of it is because I've given up on trying to force myself to find/have close friends, and am just trying to enjoy what interactions I have. Also, I still haven't 'unhidden' my dating profiles yet, though I've browsed the sites a few times. I've seen no one who piques my interest though, so I'm not really having any 'fomo'.
Ok, enough for tonight. Think I might go out for a couple again in a bit. Workouts start up on Sunday, and I'll probably cut that down to once a week when I'm taking the cycle out.
4:35 p.m. - 2023-08-18
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