I had just started to lie in bed when I thought I should really get a couple things down before I blow them off & decide not to...
1) I was at the coffee shop on Sunday & found out the gal's name that reminded me of Viv when I 1st met her (the one I have an innocent crush on). Her name is Tay (I finally asked), and she told me that she's graduating this coming Friday, and that she'll be going to NMU in the fall. This means that a) I was dead-on about her reminding me of Viv - Viv was 19 when we met, and Tay is obviously 18, if she's graduating. b)I'm kind of a creep, to have a crush on someone so young, even if it's innocent. I think it was more nostalgia than anything, but still, try to be more appropriate, JoP! *rollseyes* I suggested she check out a local state park (Presque Isle) when she gets there, and she said she knew it, as she has friends up there. I think she'll really enjoy it, as the scenery is beautiful! Anyway, seems I won't be seeing her around anymore, which makes me just a bit sad.
2) I was just informed last night that the guy who created the goth discussion board I've been a member (and senior moderator) of for the last 20 years or so, has passed away. He was a really troubled guy, lots of PTSD issues, depression, a host of others. He's been unhealthy as long as I've known him, and even though he's had a lot of support from friends, family, and loves, he decided to take his own life with a pistol in his car. That really hit home for me, as my dad went the same way, although in his apartment.
I'm sad, but not broken up, because I know that for people going through intense trauma, it seems to be their only choice, and I've always thought it was unfair & selfish to try to make them stay when they're continuously suffering & just want it to end. I know that most people can be helped through therapy & meds, but this guy was broke, no health insurance, had been on dozens of prescription meds (many at the same time, so bad that half the time, he didn't know where he was) for the majority of his adult life, and nothing helped him. I don't blame him for his choice, just like I didn't blame my dad for his - it was all they knew to do. Still, seeing the fallout will be tough. There will be a small private memorial dinner June 2nd (to which I've been invited), and I'll be making the 2 hr trip over, shortly after work on that Friday.
Honestly, I'm not sure why I'm going... I don't belong in that group, never have, but I've been a fixture on the board since around 2002, and everyone welcomed me & seems to appreciate me & wants me to be there, so i will, as a way to honour his memory, and to reconnect with those i haven't seen in a decade or more.
3) On a positive note, I think I'll be seeing the out-of-town dating site gal this weekend. I still need to confirm which day I'll be heading over, but I'm looking forward to it. If this meetup goes well, I'll have to come up with a nickname for her (and for the guitar gal too, I guess?).
Anyway, time for bed. Hope I sleep alright tonight...
9:10 p.m. - 2023-05-22
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