I've had to go back in to work twice on this vacation in order to argue something I felt was wrong on my performance review. Today was its resolution. My supervisor, in one section, put me down as "partially meets expectations". I disagreed with this, because that implicitly implies that part of my performance doesn't meet expectations, and I felt that was incorrect. I asked him to give me an example of how I wasn't, and he literally couldn't come up with an example while we were sitting there (this was on the 12th). I gave him a few days to figure out exactly what I wasn't doing, and said I'd come back in to discuss it with him.
I came back the next week, and he gave me his position. I then explained to him how he was mistaken, and that the issues was covered by our procedures, then asked if he understood, and agreed with my assessment of the situation. He somewhat grudgingly did, but when I asked him to change it, he told me he couldn't, that his boss would have to. I asked him to arrange a meeting with his boss for us so I could explain my thoughts. He agreed, and I'd been waiting all week to find out when we could meet, as today was the last work day at my company for the year. We met this morning at 9:30a, and talked for almost 1.5 hrs. I've known my boss's boss for decades (he's been with the company almost as long as I have), so it was a cordial conversation, but he was hesitant at first to change it.
Amongst my rebuttals of their understanding of the situation (all of which they acknowledged were correct), the one that ended up changing his mind was the fact that during the year, my boss & I have one-on-one meetings monthly to discuss how things are going, and not once was there any hint of my not measuring up to standards. I argued that if there really had been an issue, it was my boss's job to inform me of such, so that I might address it to ensure adequate job performance, and the fact that this was a complete surprise to me seemed disingenuous at best (paraphrased). I explained a few more things, but that seemed to have been the thing that turned it to my favor, and he agreeed to change it.
I have no problem with being told I need to improve on things, but I need to be made aware of them in order to do so. My boss isn't really a boss, he's brand-new to a leadership role, and really has no business in this particular position. In fact, I run the daily activities for our department, and WJC is effectively in charge of investigating and acquiring (if viable/necessary) any new technology (along with our typical daily duties, that is). The only thing we don't do is personnel discipline, but only because we don't have that authority. We literally don't need my boss to function in any way; for some reason, the company has decided to train him up/groom him for something I think, and so we have to deal with/work around his "interference". It's silly, because it's a 2-person department (me & WJC), and an intern (sometimes 2).
Anyway, I could go on for pages on this, but essentially, I'm very relived that I was able to mount a well-considered, knowledgeable argument for change, and that they weren't stubborn about not changing it. It might have been a small success with no monetary benefit (it didn't change my overall evaluation), but a) I won an argument with upper management, and b) I don't have to sit here with that nagging thought of there being a permanent record of my boss saying I'm not fully meeting my job requirements. I take my job, and my work reputation, very seriously, and I would have been upset/annoyed for weeks if it had stayed the same.
On a separate note, while I failed at not drinking (and I mean, *failed*), my skin issue has improved greatly (although it's not fully resolved) so I'm confident in saying that the issue was one of systemic inflammation, brought on by a sensitivity I developed to the particular strain(s) of mold in my old house, due to my initial fungal infection when I first moved in. Since I've been in the new place (and not going back to work on the old one) my skin is clearing, my sleep is better, and even my digestion has greatly improved (which was a *major* issue for the last few years). The only thing that hasn't improved is my outlook, unfortunately. I still don't see any change in singledom on the horizon, and it's still bringing me down.
3:28 p.m. - 2017-12-22
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