Dood...
I'm at a total loss as to how I should feel right now. I'm upset, angry, defeated, depressed, disgusted... We had a pretty big storm here last night that woke me up. I didn't think anything of it & fell back to sleep, got up this morning, followed my normal routine, and went to leave for work. I ehaded out through the basement as I usually do, but when I got halfway down the staris, I saw it - a good 6" of water in my basement, shit floating around everywhere. I went back upstairs & looked outside; two sides of my house were surrounded by water at least 6-8" deep. It was in the garage, the basement, covered fully half my driveway. The truck I parked just outside my garage? The water was almost halfway up the tires and by halfway, I don't mean just the rubber part, I mean almost halfway up the entire rim!)
I called in to work & told them I'd be late coming in, then headed to the hardware store & bought a sump pump & hose, got hom, hooked it up & got it running, then went back in to have something to eat & try to settle down a bit. I got online & wrote about it on one of my forums (it didn't help me feel any better), and kept checking on the water level every half hour or so. After more than two hours, I still didn't see much of a difference - the water was down *maybe* an inch. I called some people, and was told that I need to open the basement up & put fans down there, because still air will allow the water to stagnate, grow mold, etc, and then I likely won't be able to live there without getting sick. My basement slider hasn't been able to open in years, because I sprayed insulator around it to keep out drafts.
Anyway, the thing that has me really defeated is this - the problem isn't that it rained heavily last night; the problem is that the water level in my basement *is the level of the water table!! No matter how much water I pump, I don't think I'll ever make any progress, until the water table subsides. That isn't likely, because it's been sitting at just 2-3" below my basement for the last couple months. There's nowhere for the water to go! I'm just pumping it back out into the pond, which returns to the water table, then seeps up from the ground again, ad infinitum.
I called my insurance guy, and my homeowners insurance doesn't cover anything related to this. In fact, even if I'd had flood insurance, it wouldn't have covered anything beyond major appliances, and cleanup after the water recedes (which could be months, for all I know right now).
Right now, I really want to punch inanimate objects. I want to destroy things. I want to call my lender & tell them to come get the keys, because I'm defaulting & getting a fucking apartment. I mean, I was just getting ready to spend thousands of dolloars replacing the windows, redoing the insulation, having the studs repaired/replaced, having the pest control guys out to get rid of the mice, ants, wasps, and termites. Now, I don't see any point to it. Why should I waste my money on a piece of shit house that's flooded & falling apart? Fuck me...
I think I'm going to call my original lender (not the current mortgage holder) & see what happens if I default on this house. I've read a bit about short sales (not gonna happen with a house that's under water - oh, and I mean that both ways... I owe more than the house is worth, *and* it's literally *underwater*!) and deed-in-lieu, and I'm seriosuly considering the latter. I want to see just what it will do to my credit rating, because I think I've finally had enough & am ready to just give in & start over.
On the good side, I heard that this next storm system has the possibility of tornadoes, so maybe I'll get lucky & won't have a house when I get back. Knowing my luck, though, I'll be in the damn house when it goes up. Oh well, at least I won't have to pay any bills after that...
As of right now, and for the foreseeable future, I completely hate life.
3:18 p.m. - 2009-06-19
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