This past week or so, I've been thinking about the traits I have, that I consider positive and negative, and I realized something...
All of my (few?) positive traits are things that no one will ever see/learn about me unless they get to know me well, whereas my negative traits are out there for all the world to see at a glance. It's no wonder I've been single for so many years, and not surprising that that's unlikely to change. The people who never get to know me beyond a surface level will never see the good in me, and because of that, they'll never want to put in the effort to do so. My negatives prevent my positives from being recognized.
And truthfully, there are a lot more negatives than most people even want to deal with. I mean, why bother wading through pounds of difficulties in the (unlikely) hope of finding an ounce of good? That's not a wise investment of anyone's time, is it?
I imagine this is one of the reasons I don't like going out anymore. It's much easier to pretend there's nothing wrong with me, that I'm likeable (lovable?), when I don't have any outside influences/interactions actively destroying that fragile self-delusion. And I do believe it's a delusion.
8:53 p.m. - 2023-02-18
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