I sort of have a new crush at work. She also works in HR (I think?), but this is only the 2nd or 3rd time I've seen her. We ran into each other at the time clock on the way out of work today & exchanged a few pleasantries while leaving the building. She seems really nice, and she's very cute, and I've been slightly twitterpated ever since. Kind of reminds me of when I met SSG (the sandwich-shop-girl), if you remember that whole fiasco...
Unfortunately (for me, again), she seems very young - I suppose that might be partially due to her stature. SSG was small, but this gal is smaller, both in height and weight. (As an aside, I recall the 1st time I saw her a couplefew months ago, I thought someone had brought their daughter to work! Obviously, I didn't pay much attention to her then, and only put it together today that it was the same woman.) Anyway, I know it won't go anywhere so it's not a big deal, but it was surprising/interesting to notice I had such a similar reaction to another small woman like that.
I'm not sure where that attraction comes from exactly - I know my 1st love is/has always been very thin, and I think she's 5'4" or so, and I imagine that's a big part of it? Also, I think it suits the 'protector/nurturer' role I tend towards. I try to keep a fairly open mind when it comes to dating, but every time I've had this sort of reaction, it's been in response to a smaller/more petite woman. I don't talk about it much because the few times I have in the past (moreso IRL than here, but it's happened here too, in a different journal), I've been bashed for it; for being attracted to 'kids', being a 'creep', or being told that 'real women have curves', etc, and basically being put down for it. Is it wrong? Am I a creep? I don't feel like it, but I have no idea how 'society' perceives me.
Ugh. Now I'm nervous about posting this - fear of judgment, condemnation, or even just confirmation that I actually am a creep.
3:49 p.m. - 2022-08-31
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