I'm burnt out.
I've been sitting on the futon pretty much since i got back (aside from a few hours yesterday spent cleaning out the back porch). I set a lot of things out by the roadside, as people will generally stop & grab anything of value, and by the end of the evening, it was all gone. I also built a makeshift fixture to bend the side trim that needs to be installed on the new Indian front fender, and while it worked as I expected, I didn't make the curve deep enough, and it's really not bent to the correct shape to install yet.
Anyway, all of the evening Wednesday, all of the afternoon/evening of Thursday, and all of today so far, has been spent online on the futon. I want/need to take the Honda out for a longer ride to see if the problem has actually been fixed, but my face was so sunburned when I got home Wednesday that I'm hesitant to go back out during the day. I rode the Indian for about 20 miles last night & it was nice, but without a destination or someone to visit, it was really a bit of a let-down. Some friends of mine are playing an outdoor live gig tonight (out of town), which will be socially distanced, but I don't feel up to being around people who are drinking right now, for various reasons.
I'm feeling isolated and alone again. I wish I had a group of people with whom I talked on a regular basis, but I don't, so there's no reason to dwell on it. All I feel up to doing right now is eating, watching shows online, or maybe reading or going back to bed. I'm even tired of the way I play guitar, as so many of the songs I know lose so much when strummed rather than finger-picked, that I think they sound dumb & I don't want to hear them played. I imagine there are a lot of things I could be doing, but I don't have the energy or the will to put any effort into doing them.
2:40 p.m. - 2020-09-04
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