So, over the course of 3.5 hrs, I had four drinks tonight. I was more outgoing, more sociable, and more relaxed. I also spent the evening watching idiots get shit-faced, and wondering what the fuck was wrong with them.
Got a text from GRJ tonight, nothing important, just "touching base" with me, I guess. She said she's planning something for the Good Friday weekend, for us to hang out, since it's "getting warmer now". My guess is that she's looking for me to help fix her truck, like we've been discussing for a while now. Kind of hope that's not all, because it would be cool to hang out & catch up, but I expect it to be just helping out.
So anyway, you wanna know how I got past my "depressive episode"? I stopped going to the sandwich shop. Yep, that's it... just avoid the trigger that made me so upset with myself for not being able to act. I guess I just have to avoid anyone I'm interested in, since I don't seem to have the ability to convert that into anything meaningful. Rather than "fake it 'til you make it", I'll just avoid it altogether.
And what better way to avoid everything than by drinking again!?
Meh. Probably not. Didn't really do much for me tonight. Seems that nothing really does much for me anymore...
2:39 a.m. - 2014-04-05
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