Random observations:
1) People (to clarify; bar friends/musicians/etc) are only excited to see me & talk to me when they're drunk. I get the mildest of "hello"s in passing otherwise. I can count on one hand the people who are genuinely glad to see me when they're sober. This makes me sad. But get them drunk, and they miss me/dig me/want to talk to/with me about everything.
2) In talking with the door girl the other night, I realized that, due to my well-rounded body of life experiences, I can find commonalities with anyone with whom I have a discussion. This means I can't use "things we have in common" as a judgement/guide to dating. Wtf else is there, other than chemistry/physical attraction? It doesn't really matter, because none of them are single anyway, and flirting is quite discouraging/seemingly pointless when I know this. Door girl, Open Mic gal, two pub waitresses... all in relationships, and all have no problem mentioning their b/f's in conversation. U.g.h.
3) I paid $12 for an advanced ticket for a show tonight, one of three bands that were playing was a buddy of mine. Turns out, I missed his set. 2nd band, nowhere near my style, and I couldn't last through even two songs. Waited over an hour for the headliner to go on, and within the first 5 minutes, decided I was completely indifferent to them. Spent $12, watched a total of three songs. Not my best investment. Should have stayed home, I couldn't even muster the energy to talk with the door girl more than a sentence or two. Spent the evening standing alone at the bar, with the occasional drunk "friend" coming by to "chat".
4) Today was not a good mental health day for me. At least I'm still not drinking.
12:23 a.m. - 2014-03-03
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