I got a call from GRJ the other night at 1:30a. I was asleep, and she left a voicemail. I haven't replied yet, for a couple reasons; 1) there was no questions, nor any info that would require it, 2) I'm tired of her only calling me when things are shitty or she's feeling bad. Why do I feel a responsibility to her? I mean, she has friends, some good friends even, so why do I feel like I'd be abandoning her if we were to stop talking? I guess it's because she's told me before that I'm the only person she knows who understands her when things go that way, and accepts it/her without judgment. Everybody needs someone like that in their life, right? Seems like it would be a cold thing for me to bail on her. I don't know, it's just annoying, because I'd like to be friends, I'd just like to share in the good times too, not just the bad. Guess I'll wait & see if I hear from her again.
I finally got back to bench pressing last night, really light weight, and I had some twinges of pain in my shoulder, but nothing serious. It's like I'm having to relearn it again. That's ok, at least I'm back at it. Oh, and I realized I can't run in the mornings. I mean, I can, and I like it, but my body doesn't. My knee hurt for two days, so bad that I had trouble getting up out of a chair. I never have that problem when I can go to bed & recover, so I'm back to lifting, but now 6 days a week. When I get back from vacation, I'll see about getting back to running.
Went out to a new karaoke place last night for a bit, because some people I know were going to be there & I haven't seen them since Bo was last in town. They weren't there yet when I arrived - I waited 20 minutes, then left, never did see them. I suppose if I'd had a drink or two, I might have been able to stay, but I felt too awkward without it, so I left. Had they been there, I think I would have been fine, but oh well. Other than the show on (Saturday?) I haven't been out in a week or two, I think. It's lonely, but I don't feel like I'm missing much. It was always just a bunch of drunks letting loose, which can be amusing for a while, but gets really stale after a while, especially when you haven't been drinking. I'm curious to see if anyone notices I haven't been around, and thinks enough about it to contact me. I'm doubting it. Oh well to that too...
I know we're all anonymous on here, but does anyone else look at their friends' list as people who are actually friends (aside from the people you may know IRL)? From what little I've gotten to know people through what they share here, I feel like I'd be comfortable meeting any one of you. It's funny, in a way, that I feel more of a friendship with people I've mostly never met than I do with the people I (used to) see on a regular basis here in town. I wonder what that says about me?
1:56 p.m. - 2013-09-13
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