I've decided that, rather than fight it, I'm going to just allow myself this week to dwell on/in my unwarranted pessimism/negative attitude. I've not worked out at all since last Friday, and have only gone runnning once. I'm just not into it/up for it right now. It's alright, though - a week off isn't going to kill me. For that matter, maybe I need the time off!?
I went out again last night, to karaoke - not because I really wanted to sing, but because I couldn't think of another bar in which I'd feel comfortable. I really wanted to go somewhere I've never/rarely been before, but the only place I could think of like that was clear on the other side of town, almost 45 minutes away, and I wasn't even sure it was open. I digress... karaoke. I ran into a gal I know from the local karaoke night, who likes my singing. She talked me into doing a song for her. (By this point I'd already had a few drinks, otherwise it wouldn't have happened) Anyway, once I started, I wanted to sing more. I sang two songs, (50 Ways to Leave Your Lover, by Paul Simon, and Wink and a Smile, by Harry Connick, Jr.) and then we ran out of time. They went over surprisingly well for a college crowd, and I actually got some genuine applause, and a few "nice job"'s on the way back to my seat. That made me feel better about my singing, which is something I needed.
You know, I don't really feel like discussing anything else at the moment, so I'm going to put this thought out there, to the universe - tomorrow, something pleasantly surprising and happiness-inducing is going to happen. I can feel it!
(I wonder what it's going to be!?)
edited to add: this was my horoscope for today...
It might feel like your emotions are taking over your entire life right now, but maybe that's not such a bad thing. If you feel tears welling or a giggle coming up from your belly, don't try to fight it. Just let it go and let yourself feel whatever you feel right now -- it's the only way to move through it. And don't worry if these feelings seem to be putting you in a grumpy or introspective mood. You are an imperfect human and it is a healthy thing to process all your feelings.
10:56 a.m. - 2009-03-26
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